Aug 27,the meaning of LOSE

AUG 27, 7am
travel to oldtown football field again...after 13 hours..
having a frenly match with FBS student...
tis match was form by my housemate,Ryan XD....
glad to meet with my current housemate,they all football kaki..and nw i quite gay with them nw

first of all,let me tell u first the final result 10-0'
we makan telur...haha...
ok nw,let me describe our team member...
we have 10 people only(tak de sub) but the opponent have 14 people(include 3 sub)
thn most of our team member dun have any BASIC of football...especially our 4 defender..
but we having a good start ..i play in middle and take control of midfield for 30 minute ONLY...
remember ya for 30 Minute only..thn i totaly lost in the field ad...
u noe y?cuz our man down..one by one...
our left wing run till vomit,my fren kaki tiu kin,thn still gt one langgar with opponet keeper..gigi patah = =
haha..so i noe ad..it is impossible to win tis match...we left 7 people and 5 of them totaly give people play oni...haiz...opponets not so good leh..rili...they not good in control,speed guarante lose to me...,even bodycontact oso..= =
but football is a teamwork game nt personal solo show..veli ke xi...i oso almost down in the match..cuz i can feel my kaki goin fly away ad...

after losing this match,i try to think it back...
y i m not angry or mad?i do care win or lose when i was young(14,15yrs old)
but i nt mad at all,cuz i try to understand the meaning of lose
lose is not the end for me
losing a match let me understand bout myself..the space for improvement...
lose is a power to push u futher more to improve urself..

mayb i old ad...hehe
so wont get mad easy...
my leg totaly out ad...veli ringan nw and having some pain from my knee...
guess must take a few day to rest.....
thn...let rolling out again...

Old feeling

August 26,6.pm(13 hours before the frenly match start)

fianlly have a chance to go oldtown play football ...my housemate + senior Ryan bring me go ther since i haven been ther b4..

jus plan for warm up oni...do drible pratice(football dribble totaly diffrent from futsal)..we went ther on 6pm..not much people yet..after tat u can many uncle cum ad..indian,melayu,cina..all uncle uncle + a few teenage(age above 25)..having old feeling jus like playing in youngster n year b4...

thn we simply start the game lar...fuyoh..damn nice those uncle stop ball..

stick on his leg 1..and i meet Chistiano Ronaldo ther...Rili!no bluff

damn fast tat indian..mucle gao gao..speedy..i must pick up with full high speed thn only can chase him...

quite nervos...i do few mistake but i having a good feeling... after finish the match..the chienese uncle cum and ask me wheter wana to join KAMPAR CHIENESE FOOTBALL bo..

walao kena shock leh....i'm so good meh??

XD..anyway,having a nice football moment in kampar

swting till hole shirt and body basah...wat a old feeling again...

Aug 23,Monday

Today Wei Quan invite me go play Football in Utar

i tot there should not be many holiao eh people go play...

but suprise when i saw the opponent player...swt all strong...

bo huat liao...thn try my best to complete this football game...

of course i ,wei quan and other 1 fren join the "jus play syok syok" team...

haiz...

no matter how hard i run

no matter how hard i pray for the ball deliver by midfield...

it make me dissapointed...

...and also i dissapointed with myself...

i try refresh wat i learn in youngster

but the problem is ...no midfielder in our team to control the midfield...

oni my fren solo in midfield...so it force me play into the middle....gosh~

i missed a few chance to score a goal but ontarget...XDD

the keeper not so good leh,y i canot score..argg..

nvm..try harder next time...

finaly we lose 4-1

luckly no eat egg....

我真的很差吗？

虽然很小声但我还是听见了

“要和他一队meh他这样差”

我还是听到了

我懂我很差但，没有你们想得那么差

那时我是这么想的...我一直相信我自己

但...我快觉得我真的差到很惨了

过了那一舜间....我真想躲起来哭泣

还以为我已站在高峰上

但现在已坠落比深渊还深的黑暗

很不明白

我花了那么多时间来练习

不断寻找着足球的答案

不断钻研另类的球技

到最后得到的 还是别人看衰自己眼光

如果再一次听到那句话

也许是我该让自己封闭在无人的世界里

我没放弃

他们没那么好...是我差而已

每场我踢得很尽力

攻得很卖力，守得也很吃力

到最后还是输了

赢了他们没什么意义

输了他们就等于输给了自己

起起落落的状态

就像吸毒者的心声....

妈妈说

我背负着许多问号

才让我自己走得那么慢

是时候让自己休息了

可是这是个无聊借口

在yongster踢球也是一样

被前辈骂也不可以怪他们因为我真的不好

被他们看不起也不能说他们狗眼看人低因为我真的很差

真的...

我快倒下去了

1st step in UTAR big field

a happy day started up with rainny day but our game still on

thank for Alex and Ryan(my senior housemate) inviting me..abo i duno when got chance go to play big field

haha..but abit to complain is

Utar tak da duit tanam rumput

70% in the field full of sand...

still remain the same..i still playing winger...

the first touch of ball terus pecut = =

haha...almost score a goal early in the first half...

but still not willing to dribble well cuz long time din touch FOOTBALL and play in the field ad

almost 1 and the half year ad...

i improve my self ad...i m not only playing Right wing but oso play in middle...keep supporting..

and running like hell in left wing...

i dun remember the score..but i noe i hat trick today plus miss up a few chance..XDD

we all play syok syok nia..haha

thn we back bout 7pm...

(cuz the guard chase us go)

= =

i miss everything

in sejati and dewan kenangan....sin min padang oso....

+ sejati team

Community Sheild MANU vs Chelsea

Loser~

Loser..~

LOOOser~

Chelsea = Loser~loser

woo~~

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sunday,10pm

went to Mamak with my fren and grab a beautiful seat thn enjoy the match

^^...

just purposely to c HErnandez appear in the screen..

after he scored for Mu i decide to buy his jersey..XD

YES!

Wat a happy Sunday for me and all MU 's fans

UTAR sport Carnival

Last saturday,i went to skul for watching Futsal match which is Facaulty vs Facaulty in sport carnival event..

UTAR ain't have any inter-university match for futsal..sad~

ermm..well ..tis carnival not look like carnival...

i tot it should be full of people..but i think i was wrong

jus a few of people...the game in carnival just invole Volley ball and Futsal..for morning session

other like basketball and tennis held in afternoon..tat y it causes a few people oni..

i recognize tat only 20% of studenf in UTAR intrest in futsal or football only...

Sure 50% of UTar student all is zai nan..XDD

u noe y?My Facaulty langsung takda take part in any sport.. = =

OMG *infinite

so it was dissaponted...i go ther jus support my fren's team only...

oh well,they were unavaiable to step into final...

so i go home early lar..

thn sleep...

sleep...

sleep

....

sleep

i dream i score in World Cup 2014 final....

Malaysia 1-0 Spain..

Tat all for my day

(saturday 7 August)